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I think my 6 yo reads my mind. Other than that, no.

The problem with my belief system is that I believe I don't know  
anything about this stuff, and that anything is a possibility. The  
other problem is I identify all too well with a depressed mother stuck  
out in the sticks.  I know this is going to sound terrible, so if this  
comes out wrong, bear with me...but in a very sad way, I think mothers  
who kill their children AND THEN GO ON TO KILL THEMSELVES have become  
so deluded they think they are rescuing the kids from something worse  
than death The length of time and the seriousness of the situation  
seems to me something that would sink into a place. No, it's not the  
house's fault, but like it or no, I believe something of that  
resonates around. I guess it could be cleared, but really, I don't  
have anyone to go to for that. There is no High Priestess of Sitting  
Nekkid in the Sun 1rst Hedonist Church, cause that's pretty much as  
close to my religion as I can pin down.

The thing about hoping that she's friendly is...she might have been,  
but at that moment, she certainly wasn't, and while I might not expect  
malevolence, plain old sunk in sadness and trouble is no gift. I think  
it's kind of interesting that only women responded with the cleansing  
idea, and the only man who responded (I think) was all about getting  
the details to nail it down.  : )


Celia