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  • From: "Wendy Gulliver" <crazygardens AT verizon.net>
  • To: <homestead AT lists.ibiblio.org>
  • Subject: Re: [Homestead] Homestead Digest, Homestedaing partners
  • Date: Mon, 27 Nov 2006 11:36:52 -0500

I don't like to fight. I love a good discussion/debate with level-headed people, however, if someone comes at me and I sense anger/rage etc (violent emotions, a category in which physical attraction my mind has also placed), I back-up real fast. Actually, daughter number two is a black belt and, when not at school, is a sempi at a local dojo. I can hold my own in a sparing match. It is not a matter of being able to defend oneself in a staged situation, which is more like playing a game. In fact, if I were attacked on the street in an act of random violence, say a mugging, I'm sure I could do some serious damage. The problem is deeper than that. I have a tendency to attract men with a possessive, controlling, using "stalker type" mentality, so any poor guy who approaches me for just a little company, no how innocent his intentions are, automatically triggers that flight reflex. After all, they all start out sweet and nice.

Since it is Thanksgiving season, I have realized that I have one more thing to be thankful for: this list. Just being able to put my thoughts concerning this matter on "paper" has allowed me to dig more deeply into my own mind and sort out some feelings I had buried. The first step toward conquering ones own fears is to understand them.

Thanks for the show of support. I love you guys.

Wendy


Mom, you're an ass.
Yes, I know.

That about sums it up.

I don't think being prudently fearful constitutes ass-ness. Seems
more like common sense based on experience. You are no doubt
justifiably fearful of those who are bigger and stronger than you.

Maybe a self-defense course?







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