Fast forward two years. I saw the same people just last week. It was a muchI've been watching this whole thing unfold, Lisa, and several times been struck by the similarities to my situation. I've always been the 'crazy' among my birth siblings, and they weren't sky about stating their opinions. Rarely have they deemed it worthwhile to visit me; the accommodations are lacking, services are lacking, they I'm sure, could go on for a long time. Only one of them can even see the peace & quiet, the ability to be self-reliant to a great degree, clean, decent, reliable food supplies, and all the other things that have to me a higher value than to them, obviously. Always I have been the butt of jokes, some of which would be actually cruel if I weren't so dense as not to 'get' it :-) . They had prettier (true), smarter (debatable), blah, bhah, kids, who would go out into the world to do great things; in the meantime said kids were educated solely by the school system, mostly public, occasionally private. And so it went for many years. It was clear to me that they considered themselves successes and if I wasn't already a failure, I was about to fall in a hole any minute.
different and somewhat subdued gathering. We all tip-toed around the economy
and the election. This experience has been eye opening to me on many levels.
I need to learn to trust and believe in myself. I am brighter than I thought
I was and will no longer think my brother knows it all.
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